|It is often difficult to deal with aging, says the white-haired lady|
Well, anyway, that particular site was about various eating disorders and about how women are terribly hard on themselves about their body images. Even slender women, when asked, say they would like to lose about ten pounds. Of course, as we all know, there are women and girls who suffer from anorexia... this is an extremely complicated set of problems... distorted body image, poor self-esteem, psychological problems... Also, according to this site, the media and the existence of pornography are fueling womens' feeling of inadequacy as to their appearance. I will say a healthy "Amen!" to that!
|Moshe and me a few months ago|
There was a time, before my disability, when I was fairly athletic... very fit! Then, came the illness, the immobility, the pain, the medications with their side-effects. And, of course, I'm getting older. All of this has resulted in the full-bodied woman rather than the thin one. Sigh. I wish I didn't care so much about it. I wish I didn't worry about it. I wish I didn't eat cake and ice cream out of frustration about it. And, I KNOW that there are millions of other women out there who feel exactly the way I do.
What to do? What to do? The way I am approaching this problem is as follows:
#1: I am trying to be honest, but kind, with myself. Chances are I will never again be a size 6 - or anywhere near it, unless I am terribly - maybe terminally - ill. Now, exactly how does that make me less of a person than fifteen years ago?
#2: I have started taking pictures of myself every day. Maybe if I see how I actually look, I can "grin and bear it"??? I don't know, but, I think it is healthier than avoiding the camera the way I tend to.
#3: Write about it. Well, yes, that's what I'm doing right now. There is something very healing about putting one's thoughts, fears, vulnerabilities out there. Hey! After you've come out with it, there's no turning back.
|animals love me, fat or not...|
Lastly, if someone in your life thinks you are undesirable because of your weight, they are the one with the problem - not you!
Shalom Y'all - Twyla